It's crazy how times changes

Chapther1

Helt sjukt hur tiden rusar iväg/flyter förbi, utan att man märker av det. Helt plötsligt står man där, antingen själv eller alla ens bekanta med hus, vovve, villa, volvo utan att man märkt av hur allt det där hände. Vad hände på vägen dit? Vart var man på vägen? Helt sjukt hur tiden bara rinner iväg utan att man märker av det..

It's really crazy how times rushes by, and without noticing it, either you ore every one around you has suddenly grown up, without any notice. Time just rushes by. What happend with the time between that? And with the time until now?
Really crazy how times changes, not only time, but also the people around you.
Sure it would be boring if everything countinued to be the same. I admit that.
But how could that even happend without noticing it? A friend getting married, another graduating, getting their first job, suddenly grown up. Sure, I've been living abroad for the past 1,5years and sure I'vent been the best with keeping in touch with people, but still. What happend? It's like time pass by without anyone noticing.

And also, to take notice to how people around you changes. Sometimes I'm not sure If I'm the one who changed, ore if the surrounding ore people did. Maybe im' just overreacting, that my friend from childhood getting engaged and prob married sooner ore later! It was just like yesterday we use to play around. And now suddenly people are just grown up. Same time, other people, which assumed use to be 'good' friends (what i thought) of yours, changes. Become colder. more ego. and more anti-social.. and mean. not sure what money does with people, ore if its pride, ore jelaousity. not sure what, but some people changes, not always for the better, and it strang what pride can do to them. so it's not always for the better...

But i guess I just miss the 'old times' , what use to be better..since time and people changes. I miss the 'old times.'

Apart from that, any Other news?
Not really.
Life goes on.

It's crazy how times changes

Chapther1

Helt sjukt hur tiden rusar iväg/flyter förbi, utan att man märker av det. Helt plötsligt står man där, antingen själv eller alla ens bekanta med hus, vovve, villa, volvo utan att man märkt av hur allt det där hände. Vad hände på vägen dit? Vart var man på vägen? Helt sjukt hur tiden bara rinner iväg utan att man märker av det..

It's really crazy how times rushes by, and without noticing it, either you ore every one around you has suddenly grown up, without any notice. Time just rushes by. What happend with the time between that? And with the time until now?
Really crazy how times changes, not only time, but also the people around you.
Sure it would be boring if everything countinued to be the same. I admit that.
But how could that even happend without noticing it? A friend getting married, another graduating, getting their first job, suddenly grown up. Sure, I've been living abroad for the past 1,5years and sure I'vent been the best with keeping in touch with people, but still. What happend? It's like time pass by without anyone noticing.

And also, to take notice to how people around you changes. Sometimes I'm not sure If I'm the one who changed, ore if the surrounding ore people did. Maybe im' just overreacting, that my friend from childhood getting engaged and prob married sooner ore later! It was just like yesterday we use to play around. And now suddenly people are just grown up. Same time, other people, which assumed use to be 'good' friends (what i thought) of yours, changes. Become colder. more ego. and more anti-social.. and mean. not sure what money does with people, ore if its pride, ore jelaousity. not sure what, but some people changes, not always for the better, and it strang what pride can do to them. so it's not always for the better...

Other news?
Not really.
Life goes on.

Är det såhär det ska vara

Är det såhär det ska va?
Är det såhär det ska kännas?
känns som att jag håller på att gå sönder.... i tusen bitar... o vet inte hur jag ska pussla ihop allting eller få alla bitarna på plats.
Men, men, det är väl såhär det ska va när man mår dåligt.
men vad gör man?

Is it like this how it's suppose to be?
Is it like it's suppose to feel?
Since it feels like i'm going to break into thousand pieces...
and i've no idea how to put the pieces together. just like broken glass..
i guess this is how it suppose to feel when you are not feeling ok.
atleast i know i'm not going to able to burry that sorrow away.
leave it like dust, or until it becomes dust, and hope that it will stay like that.
but i know that it's not possible. something has to be done.
but when is it going to be better?
and is it ever going to change?


#countingdays


broken pieces, have you ever felt like this?





cat power.


and now, something more positive..
cat power- you are free..
a great song,artist....singer..wonderful in every single way and makes me feel ok for actually a moment. admirable woman.

Kemer- Turkey, Inferno
w Banderos

Banderos

Banderos - w "Adios" and "A beautiful life"





Såg dem live i Kemer!! @Inferno!:-)
Live show from Kemer, turkey!

Sky Ferreira.....

Sky Ferreira - Miike snow, animal cover
gives me shivers...
here she is



<<333

Leszek Mozder..

Marry me?

Leszek Możdzer -plays Nirvana

Cheer up...

Think this version is 1000 thousand times better,
watch "apologize" with Swedish singer Erik Zegerstedt..
great singer.



But not the best version with him,
but for this time, good enough though.
:)

It's too late.....

It's too late....

Sometimes it's too late to apologize
Sometimes it hurts 2 much
and noone has ever hurt me as you done,
it's too late to apologize
I don't need that shit anymore
i dont need that shit.




/go and never turn back

Looking for peace...

Looking for peace... eller nåt.
Bjuder på dagens video i all lugn och ro.

Puerto rico . Espectacular.


Looking for #Peace #Peacefullness

Alors en dance. let's go out

Bjuder på dagens låt iaf...
Stromae - Alors on dance...





En annan bra artist som jag varmt rekomenderar är
Anita Tijoux- 1977



Lyssna, ta in, och njut..<3pez

Fattar inte vad jag ger mig inpå....

Som tidigare inlägg tyder på så har jag och "X" tagit en break, paus, i vårt förhållande. Han stannade kvar i Pl och säkert ****ade runt som en åsna..... vad vet jag.
Hursomhelst, så är detta (han) en väldigt lätt person att få känslor för. Det räcker att jag ser han, eller även nu, efter 2månader av ingen kontakt, så börjar jag få känslor för honom igen.
Fattar inte vad jag ger mig in på, denna "onda" karusell..cirkel....som aldrig
tar slut känns det som. risken finns att jag blir sårad igen.
Han har ju inte visat sig vara en pålitlig person, så varför bryr jag mig?
Varför gör jag det här igen? ger mig in i ett djavla spel som inte är värt ett skit.
o får inte tillbaka något från honom(ok,kanske är lite otacksam,..han är ju snäll
o har funnits där för andra/mig), men han har även sårat mig på många andra sätt som ingen annan har. eller jag inte kan förlåta (känns det som). och man säger ju att kärleken ska förlåta allt o att man ska ha 'compassion' , men hur mkt ska man tåla innan man går under själv.
orkar snart inte mer.
så djavla trott på all bullshit. så mkt snack och ingen verkstad.
så mkt bra stunder o fina ord.
smicker.
o man faller så l'tt... varför gör jag det här igen?
ska jag sätta stopp innan det går för långt denna gång o hålla kvar relationen på en "vänskapsnivå".rent logiskt eller rationellt, vet jag inte om vi har en framtid ihop. men hur mkt vet man som 20+-åring? man utvecklas ju.
vi kanske inte har samma mål, eller är lika. men hur kommer vårt liv att se ut om tex 5-10 år?om d inte kommer funka då, om vi är helt olika med olika mål, varför satsa..
fast å andra sidan är vi inte så olika.
när det kommer till intressen, mål, personlighet, mm så är vi lika som bär.
vi matchar. som två klossar. pusselbitar.
som sitter perfekt. ying & yang.
och det är det som är så djavla bra o positivt.
problemet är att han inte vet hur man behandlar sina nära o kära med respekt.
eller så älskar han inte en tillräckligt.
varför behandlade han mig som ett asshole annars?
djavlades han bara?
varför inte bara vara uppriktig?
varför kan han inte vara ärlig, o ge ärliga svar, om han tycker detta är något som är värt att satsa på.?

fattar inte...........confused:%!°!"#€%&7=)))(/&%as hell

Being home

Not much is going on.... I came home from PL before christmas and was at home during New years....Was suppose to leave back to Pl after that but thing's didnt went as expeceted.
Anyway, me and X broke up more ore less so I'm trying to go on with my life now
he's at home at his place and i'm back home (where I belong?) not sure,
but 've countinue /moved on with my studies, what I'm doing best I guess.
We speak on the phone sometimes, but it doesn't happen really often
he doesn't know how much he broke my heart and it will get time to get over it
i start to get use to it though.we're friends now, and I don't mind that..

Serenity prayer...

Serenity prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

**************
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

****************
I hate that by being with you, I have to go through all this again
and to cope with all the emotions and pain that you caused me.
Sure its my fault and i take responsibility for my actions.
but if i knew what I know now, i would ave never got into it.
Why am I so ****ing depressed?
I've done to do everything right in my life and how could it end up all like this....
just crappy.

Check the video! Love the 80'ess!!

Womack & Womack - teardrops (footsteps on the dancefloor ;]
Check the video! I just love the 80's! haha



But then again....I feel this all over again when Im starting from zero again.
This song is how i feel/felt the first time I felt in love with you. ;]
good old times <3
X'es!;)

I can't take it anymore....i just want to escape

movie Donnie darko - 'mad world'
music gary jules
song mad world



I love this song, it's from the movie 'donnie darko' with jake gyllenhaal,
Donnie darko - 'mad world'.for everyone who wants to enjoy(?) a sad/mad movie.
i dont know, its a bit comic sometimes too.
***********
so how am i feeling today?
i just feel that i just cant take it anymore....
can somebody save me from this world of madness and crazy people?pls?
its just too much sometimes and i feel that eather the world is going crazy
ore i am. i can deal with some people anymore. they just take too much energy from you.
i need to focus on myself now:)

***
it hurts to much to be with u and i cant risk being hurt again.
it just too much for me.
i cant take it anymore. i just want to escape....
not that i dont love u. cause i do.
i just cant take it anymore. its just too much.
this is about me not about u.x

Så mycket har handlat om dig, men den här är om mig Å Å S

modest mouse

Modest mouse-dashboard
love this one......but damn it hurts......we crashed so hard and we still got the radio.....we did crash....we crash so hard we did, with the car and whatever we had


Modest mouse-dashboard


Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.

Oh, it should've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
Well, you told me about nowhere well it sounds like someplace I'd like to go.

Oh, it could've been, should've been worse than you would ever know.
Well, the windshield was broken but I love the fresh air y'know.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)

Oh, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know, oh!
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)
Oh, we talked about nothing which was more than I wanted you to know-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Now here we go!

Oh! It would've been, could've been worse than it had even gone
Well, the car was on blocks, but I was already where I want.
(It was impossible, we ran it good, we ran it good)

Why should we ever even ever really even get to know?
(It was impossible, we ran it good, we ran it good)
Oh if the world don't like us it'll shake us just like we were a co-oh-oh-oh-old.
Now here we go!

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
we've yet to crash, but we can might as well tow it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you're surprising,
And the evening was consoling
Saying "See it wasn't quite as bad as"
Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.

I was patiently erasing and recording the wrong episodes
after you had proved my point wrong,
It wasn't like I'd let it go, oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.
I just wanted to catch the last laugh of this show.

Yeah, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.
(The dashboard melted, but we ran it good, we ran it good)

Hard-wired to concieve, so much we'd have to stow it
Even needs have needs, tiny giants made of tinier giants.
Don't wear eyelids so I don't miss the last laugh of this show.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)

Oh, we could've been, should've been worse than you would ever know.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)
Well, you told me about nowhere well it sounds like someplace I'd like to go-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Now here we go!

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
we've yet to crash, but we can might as well tow it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you're surprising,
And the evening was consoling
Saying "See it wasn't quite as bad as"

Oh it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.

You know who you are.....

Once u were mine.......but I was so naive....
and so are u
how could we ever belive in eachother?
I was so damn stupid.
love u neway.and ajj....it hurts so much

The kooks -naive

New york

Min kära vän *S* åker till Ny för att plugga på Parsons (Parsons school of design) kommande termin!

Den här är till dig:D


Tycker den var lite rolig....



I will miss u! kom ihåg !Nothing's impossible now!!!!!:D once u hit the big city!!
lots of love,xxxxx

OK.......

Ok, ja, jag erkänner väl att jag älskar dig fortfarande o att jag inte kan släppa taget än. Jag älskar faktiskt dig. Oavsett vad du har gjort mot mig.
Men det vore så mkt lättare om du kunde släppa taget om mig, och låta mig "gå".
Jag vill nog hellre vara själv än att vara med dig!
Ändå så är vi så sjukt lika att det inte är sant.
+attt jag inte kan bryta mig loss utan dig.

Minns du den här t.ex? kan inte sluta tänka på dig....finns så mkt som påminner om dig o hur mkt jag älskar dig.jag erkänner det.jag älskar dig.

Fight club - The Pixies- where is my mind

Älskar slutet av scenen när han håller hennes hand.

Bjuder även på denna:
Alanis Morisette- what if God was one of us


Jag älskar dig!

Sen finns det flera låtar som påminnner om dig min käraste:
Alanis Morisette - Ironic


Kommer ihåg morgonen jag kom hem, o du trodde det skulle vara slut mellan oss eller ngt liknande, men allt visade sig att vända om till det bästa. och när du lyssnade på denna/den här låten. Livet är visst lite väl ironiskt ibland. När man förväntar sig det värsta, och saker och ting visar sig /"seemed to work out the best way".

bitterhet

O tänk all den tid som jag offrade för att få vara med dig.
hur dum i huvudet får man va.
im so glad we're done though cuz im so DONE WITH U!.
kan inte fatta att jag ens trodde på dig.
någonsin.
hur dum kan man få va.

IM SO DONE!

At some point it tears ur heart apart/kills u.

We had a great time.......but
I*M SO DONE WITH U!!!!!
///////////////////////////
thanks for a great time!///
but IM SO DONE WITH U NOW!